Saturday, March 31, 2007

1:15 AM

I'm normally in bed by 10 to 11 pm, at least lately. Yet here I am at 1:15 wide awake wishing I could go to sleep. Why you ask? Simply, I think, I drink coffee about 10:30. Why would I do such a thing you ask? Well, because coffee normally doesn't affect me at all. My Mamaw started me drinking coffee at 3 and for most of my life it, nor any caffeine really, has affected me at all. Yet, tonight I find myself laying there restless. This restlessness is causing my mind to wonder and think about things I'd rather not think about.

For example, Jack is out of town all next week. I've never stayed in this house completely by myself before. I'm not sure I'll do. I was laying there thinking and thought what if I fall down the stairs... will they find me a week later? Will this happen, no, but it's what I had going thru my mind. Pleasant thoughts I know.... Dang coffee :)

Well, I'm off to try and find some snooze - I need snooze I worked my butt off today cleaning this house. The bedroom, office and master bath still need a lot of work but the rest of the house is spotless (even the base baseboards).

Sleep well blogland!

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Today & Everyday

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to be someone else? Yes, I know we've all wondered what it's like to be a celebrity but that is not what I mean. I mean do you ever wonder what it's like to be your friend down the street, or your waitress at lunch or the guy bagging your groceries.

I realized today that I can come across to others as having a slightly aggressive, better than thou attitude. Which in reality could not be farther from the truth. I'm actually very shy, I don't start conversations with people I don't know because I don't really know how. So I smile and keep my mouth shut. I work hard and try to be good at my job, and yes I get aggravated when I'm overly criticized or when someone is being an idiot at theirs, but that's not aggressive just nature. I try to be nice to everyone. I'm also paranoid that people don't like me and that they talk about me behind my back. Probably not the case 99% of the time but this is my fear.

Where is this post going??? Well, I'm not sure. But all of this thinking made me think...

What is it like to be that person - to live their life - to see me thru their eyes. Quite an eye-opener if you think about it. Would you give the grocery guy the hurry up attitude if you knew he was being paid $5.15, was sick as a dog, had a kid at home and just really wanted to get thru his day? Wouldn't you be nice and try to make his day better if you knew this? I would, at least I hope I would.

Ok, so there you have it a page of rambling. I'm going for a walk and see if I can't get some focus. Life is good and I'm happy - Everything else is mute.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Long Time I Know

Yes, this post is well overdue but to be honest I don't have a ton to talk about. Life is trucking along without much excitement but I'm content. I'm enjoying my freedom from school and trying to relax. My new job is wonderful and I looked at the salary ranges today and found out that I'm in the top 2% of those with my title soooo I'm doing good. Really good actually.

I know I don't blog much anymore but I don't sit up here at the computer and thus the blogging has slowed. I need to get back to my hobbies (knitting, pictures, scrapbooks) but there is time later - right now I'm enjoying just being. It's a great feeling. I wish you all contentment and happiness in your life.

Until next time,


Thursday, March 01, 2007

American Idol

Ok, so I'm addicted to American Idol and Nashville Star (which ends tonight). I know it's kinda lame to like it so much but ah well.

That being said I have to say - "WHAT THE HECK IS AMERICA THINKING?" How did Sanjia make it thru to next week???? Please God why do I have to hear him sing again? I mean come on he is like a freaky baby Michael Jackson. Except Sanjia can't sing and Michael could! I mean come on - did every Mom think awe I'll vote for him so he will at least get one vote and that sympathy voting kept him in??? Ugh - I just can't believe it. I don't think I would have voted for AJ as he is not my favorite, but he was miles better than Sanjia. Ugh... well enough of that! Just had to share my outrage!

Have fun everyone - I'm off to see who wins Nashville Star. I'm sure all of the final 3 will get record deals; I'd pay to see any of them perform. But my favorite is Angela Hacker with her brother coming in a close second. She is just the embodiment of what I who I see as Country Music and I hope she stays true to the art that is Country.

Jamaica Day 2 and Part of 3

I'm relaxed - I mean really relaxed and it feels amazing.  Yesterday after the post they showed us a new room and I was really undecided...